Since Savannah was born night time has been our time. As a nursing Mom, I would get up for all her feedings throughout the night and that was our quiet time together.
As my pregnancy with Rylee comes to an end, Savannah has been waking up several times throughout the night crying for me, wanting me to hold her and wanting to be really (REALLY) close to me.
Tonight has been especially rough. She's not only cried to be close, but the moment I get up to use the bathroom or get a drink of water (which could easily be a half dozen times in a night) she's up, alert and crying for her Momma.
A Daddy's girl who's usually comforted by his embrace just isn't having it tonight. I lay her close to me, kissing her head and telling her "It's ok baby, Mommy's here."
I turn to my husband "Do you think she knows Rylee's coming?"
"Oh yeah" he responds without hesitation.
I know that she knows her quiet nighttime moments with Mommy will soon be shared. The chest she would once cuddle up to, will now belong to two, the bed she loves to snuggle in will now be shared by one more princess and the Momma she once a claimed as hers and hers alone, will now answer to another.
"Savvy, it's ok. Mommy's here. I'm not going anywhere, baby. I know, you know Rylee's coming. Our family is about to grow a little more with love and with growth, comes change. Never be afraid of change baby, some of life's best gifts come immediately after change."
Well. There you have it. Short and simple. Through the words of comfort to my child, God speaks to me. The inner most part, the scared woman inside who longs to see what was once familiar.
"Don't be afraid baby girl, I'm with you. And I'm not going anywhere. Change is good. With change comes growth."
Life's teachable moments. They are always here. Even at 3:30am on an early Friday morning, with a sleepy two year old snuggled into your chest. God will always give you what you need if you're willing to open up and receive it.
What do I know? Things will never look the same again for baby areas of my life, but it's ok. With change, comes growth.
